Hate That I'm In Love

Dear diary,

I’ve everything that I wanted,

Life, Fun, Camera, Friends, Phone, Mp3, Laptop, Car, Money and etc.

But, there’s something is missing and it ‘s driving me crazy.

I wonder what it is?

Does it something that I wanted for a life time ?

Or does it something to do with myself?

I don’t want people to judge me as I’m a selfish girl.

Maybe it’s about a boy,

A boy that I’ve known almost a year and now I can’t understand what’s my relationship with him,

As if I’m his girlfriend or a scandal nor just a friend that stood up every single of bit.

I know we are talking about love here.

And I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes,

And I know I’ve been a bad girl since awhile,

And I know I’m not such a good sister nor a daughter to my family,

Sometimes I hated myself and sometimes I loved it,

No matter what happens to me,

I hope Allah S.W.T. would help me and lead me to a better journey in my life.

The End